Nine Million Bicycles

“We each have an awful bargain in our lives” is one of Greer’s aphorisms. What is mine?

To love whom I'm forbidden to love was my first bargain in my life. I prefer to love, even it required me to waste my life for love. I struggled painfully and finally accpeted the position where I should be in your life.

To be push out from your world was my second. As long as you were not pushing me out from your longing heart.

Through endless nights, I have burned to hear you again - yet also feared to. I thought it would be like that forever —— missing you in the age of silence, living in the land of ice. I was docile to accept whatever the fate brought to me, as long as I still had your love, the kind that I wanted, the kind that I was longing for. No one could take this love away from me except you.

However, when all these words slowly sank into my heart, there's a fact we can't deny. Your love is gone, forever. Without unquenchable demanding, the remains is not the complete love.

To allow the last piece of flame to extinguish will be my third, For the sake of you, for the sake of me. I know the things will change, I know it will go to somewhere I never want it to go deep down. However, I owe you, I can't bear to see that you are in so great pain; However, the world is always a better place with you in it despite the role you are.

Am I right? Do I make the right choice? I don't know. No one can ever say.

Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. The unexpected is what changes our life.

Nine Million Bicycles

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing
That's a fact,
It's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die.

We are twelve billion light years from the edge,
That's a guess,
No-one can ever say it's true
But I know that I will always be with you.

I was warmed by the fire of your love everyday
So don't call me a liar,
Just believe everything that I say

There are six billion people in the world
More or less and it makes me feel quite small
But you're the one I love the most of all

We're high on the wire
With the world in our sight
And I'll never tire,
Of the love that you gave me some night

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing
That's a Fact,
it's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die

And there are nine million bicycles in Beijing
And you know that I will love you till I die!