You used to say, I'm the audience that Hollywood would prefer to have, coz I'm touched and moved by the cliche they tell from time to time. Well, I laughed and felt a bit shy at your comment, but not shame. Because I know you are right, and because I know I'm soft inside indeed.
You called, as I expected. And it was a short talk, very briefly, to my surprise. I could sense there was something wrong. I'm afraid you are already sensing what I'm going to say, what I'm not ready to say, what I'm afraid to say, what I'm still hestiating to say...... No matter how many times I have told myself I'v made my mind, I'm always getting cold feet when I'm listening to your voice.
It drives me into wild awake, and a palpitating heart. I'm also worrying about your migraine, your healthy. But what am I supposed to say? I can't do anything, anything at all except for asking. I can't help you, soothe you, hold you, be with you when you are in pain..... If I can't do anything, I choose to be silent, even it make me look indifferent. You know me, somehow, don't you?
I choose to see Grey's Anatomy again, to kill the void time, endlessly lonely night. I let my mind wander around you, always you. One sentence drew my attention suddenly:
When you love someone, you know, love is love. It doesn't matter that you're not supposed to be together.
You see, that's why it touch me somewhere in my heart. Trivia, but, real. Cliched, but, still moving.
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