Still Alive

很累，却怎么也睡不着，脑子里，各种话语飘来荡去。

你说做了一个美梦，于是傻傻得搁下迫在眉睫的工作，不管不顾得开始码字，希望能帮你圆梦，哪怕只能给你一点微不足道的开心也好。

聊天时，学会将这一个自己死死封闭在内心深处的角落，换一种立场，给予并接受。如果这是你想要的，我愿不惜一切去努力。而且不能否认，过程中，自己也享受到交流的愉悦，也有短暂的平静与安慰。只是，苦涩和疼痛，总是会在不经意间掠过心头，让人瑟缩、战栗、颤抖，尤其是在渴望拼命要破茧而出的时候。

挂了电话，是一种渗透到骨子里的疲惫，有点用力过度后的虚脱，也有前路茫茫不知所之的惘然。只知道，无论是哪个方向，不可能通达我想要的终点。

体内的定时器，又被复位重启，又一轮新的等待计时，好的是，这一次，知道指针的终点在哪。在等待的间隙，恢复回这一个自己。

就这样，竟也活着。

Still Alive

These are those days
when I can get no sleep
I'm so tired
I'd like to fall into sleep
I fall in my bed
But still I'm awake

These questions in my mind are so much bigger than life
But my life is short and I have to leave them behind
I have to try to forget
That I am still in my bed
In my deepest fears I'm losing you
Even if somebody tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive
I will never give up

Just turn off the lights
Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead
But when you look at me
I am still alive

Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you want me to be
Fighting with myself

All I need to feel is your breath on my skin
This endless longing inside me never fade
I can't give up now
We're gonna make it somehow

In my sweetest dreams
I'm with you
Even if somebody tried to stop my heart
I'm still alive
I will never give up

Just turn of the lights
Don't wanna see me die
I look like I'm dead but
when you look at me
I'm still alive

Just open your eyes
Don't wanna see me cry
I'm right here where you want me be
to be fighting with myself