2008年9月2日星期二

Dilemma



Harriet Beecher Stowe said “The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.” It really triggers a lot of questions lingering in my mind for quite a long time.

So, what’s your choice when you fall in love with someone whom you shouldn’t love. What can you say? How can you do? For sure you will sway between temptation to confess your real feeling and rationality to keep emotion under control – that thin razor’s edge understood by all lovers. Sort of a dilemma, isn’t it?

Should you follow your heart to speak love aloud? What if it upset the one you love? What if it brings the bittersweet feelings to the one you love? What if it hurt the one you loves and upside down whose world?

Of course, as human being, sometimes we have impulses we’d rather not control and later we wish we had. The thing is, after the rush, after the storm, after the heat of the moment has passed, we need to cool off and clean up the messes we’ve made.

Ironically, too much of anything, even love is not always a good thing.

Should you manage to bury these words deeply at the bottom of your heart? How about the fear that your silence might disappoint the one you love at some point? How about your bitterest tears for words left unsaid? How about the deepest pities for deeds left undone? How about your desire, your dream, the kind of pain you can’t ignore?

And how do you know how much the love is too much to your lover?

It is so difficult to choose when it comes to such a dilemma, isn’t it? Really depends on the depth of your love: love the one more or love yourself more! Are you willing to silent yourself for your lover, keep the pain to yourself or are you just want to release your emotions without considering any consequence on your lover’s life?

I read somewhere “for the most part love is about choices.” But sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate goes to another direction, fate wins anyway.

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